Me

"Life is too short to be little. Man is never so manly as when he feels deeply, acts boldly, and expresses himself with frankness and with fervor. " ~ Benjamin Disraeli

I'm full of emotion.  Full of passion.  I no longer feel the need to express it in love.  I have be passionate about life.  Passionate about the spirit.  I  have to explode my passion in creative pursuits.  I've held back too long.  I need to FEEL.  I need to feel with intensity!  I've been trying to feel in other ways.  Ways that are fruitless and empty.  That lead nowhere.  I've wasted time.  Wasted myself on other things and other people.  I learned today that I have to depend on no one but myself.  Share my ideas with no one but me or find someone who will be interested in my ideas if I chose to share them.  I've cared so much about and for others.  I need to care just about me for a spell.  It's my time.  It's my turn.

Where have I been?!

I'm not very good at updating my blogs.  I spend too much time on trivial pursuits and not any on the things I should be doing.  Anyway, I've come to a revelation of sorts a few days ago.  I realized I don't need a woman in my life.  At this moment I don't want one either.  Big difference between needing and wanting.  It's a big thing for me to not need a romantic relationship.  And I know deep down inside I don't want one now and don't have the time and resources for one.  I have no problem meeting women but I do have a problem keeping them interested.  Could be something I'm doing or lacking.  Also, it helps to not fall for a woman of a different religion who can't see herself marrying a man who is not of that religion.